In My Dreams I Hold A Knife – Book Review

Title:- In My Dreams I Hold A Knife

Author:- Ashley Winstead

Date published:- August 3rd 2021

Publisher:- Soucebook Landmark

Number of pages:- 356 pages

Genre:- Psychological Thriller


Plot:- 4/5

Writing:- 4/5

Overall rating:- 4/5 stars

Six friends.
One college reunion.
One unsolved murder.

Ten years after graduation, Jessica Miller has planned her triumphant return to her southern, elite Duquette University, down to the envious whispers that are sure to follow in her wake. Everyone is going to see the girl she wants them to see—confident, beautiful, indifferent. Not the girl she was when she left campus, back when Heather Shelby’s murder fractured everything, including the tight bond linking the six friends she’d been closest to since freshman year.

But not everyone is ready to move on. Not everyone left Duquette ten years ago, and not everyone can let Heather’s murder go unsolved. Someone is determined to trap the real killer, to make the guilty pay. When the six friends are reunited, they will be forced to confront what happened that night—and the years’ worth of secrets each of them would do anything to keep hidden.

Told in racing dual timelines, with a dark campus setting and a darker look at friendship, love, obsession, and ambition, In My Dreams I Hold A Knife is an addictive, propulsive read you won’t be able to put down.

Ashley Winstead is an academic turned novelist with a Ph.D. in contemporary American literature. She lives in Houston with her husband, two cats, and beloved wine fridge. You can find her at

I have always wanted to read this book and when I got my hands to this book, I was excited. The ratings and reviews are bit good in this book so I was happy that I manage to grab my hands on this book.

Jessica Miller was invited to a college reunion and she meets her friends–Caro, Coop, Mint (her-ex boyfriend), Frankie and Courtney. But ten years ago, while attending college, one of their friends Heather, was brutally murdered. The main suspect had been her boyfriend Jack but as there was no evidence, Jack was let go. Now Heather’s brother, Eric believed that Jack was innocent and one of them was the murderer. Which one actually killed Heather? And Jessica has a secret…

It first started a little boring but by 20% of the book, it got interesting with some twists and turns along the way. The story divides between the present day and the past, from the time Jessica enrolled as a freshman to the senior year in college. The book is realistic in some way as it shows Sorority recruitment and the competition that Jessica faces. Jessica yearned for a perfect life and so it is understandable why she wanted to be successful in her life, as we read on about her character.

By the middle of the book, the story started getting interesting as we realized that nearly everyone, including the main protagonist Jessica could have killed Heather as each had their own reasons to do so. The ending was what actually blew me off that really put me on the edge. I actually enjoyed the ending and it was a satisfied ending in my opinion.

This is the debut book of this author but I couldn’t believe that it was her debut book–the book was well written, packed with twists and turns, an unreliable narrator with a deep secret and that nearly every character in the story is a suspect that makes the reader guess which one of them could be the actually killer. Can’t wait to read more books from this author!

Worth four stars!

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